Post Card from London!

Weee! First time to receive a post card! And it’s from charmpot and from London!!Yey! My lab mate handed it to me during lunch break. :)

I’m really missing her terribly. Last week, I went to her friendster just to look at her pictures. I realized it’s been more than a year since she went to London and I need to refresh her image in my head. Hehe :) But praise God because we think we’ve matured a little over the past year…cause we’re not praying that God will take her back in the Philippines. We want to grow and bloom where God has planted us.

(Right charm? Is it still our prayer? Hehe, sheesh. Took a lot of time to have that little maturity. Teehee)

Aww. This card really made my day. I mean, it’s really nice to be remembered even in the simplest way.

And here’s a little of what she wrote in the post card:

Try mo kaya pindutin yung mga pictures? Baka may combination lock yan papunta dito! I super miss you ate! London is not as fun & beautiful without you here

*clicked all the pictures* Sighhhh. I’m still here. I think I have to ask God for the right combination.. :(

Miss you so much charmpot!!

*Blog ended in soft tears.*

The God who Remembers

It was Saturday. My sister just checked in the airport. The sun was setting down, families were streaming the side lines of NAIA and I was pushing away the sad feeling that my sister was leaving the country. I was actually thinking if I was sad because my sister was leaving or sad because I was left with my “favorite” brother. Haha.

My sister texted me if I could wait for a while until her plane takes off. She was nervous, I can say. I spammed her with verses and prayers. I didn’t call her since I was holding my tears and crying over the phone might not be helpful for her.

While waiting, I decided to listen to an audio sermon saved in my pink phone. I listened to Pastor Yang Tuck Yoong’s preaching about “The God who Remembers”.

The sermon hit me bull’s eye. And listening to it at the airport, with planes flying and landing on my view seemed to be the prefect spot for the preaching.

Well you see, I didn’t know that being a young adult is quite “confusing” as compared to being a youth. I mean, I’m facing a lot of crossroads lately (and again). As if I am walking in a hotel aisle where a lot of doors are opening for me, but the TEST is, which door is FROM THE LORD.

The thing that is keeping my focus, something like a compass that points me to my north, is the promise of God in my life. He said it to me in the past, He confirmed it not just once, and He told me to WAIT (not just once also), but a couple of times.

Oh how hard it is not to move when the doors that are opening seemed to be “good” and “appealing”.

Then the Lord, encouraged me that HE IS THE GOD WHO REMEMBERS. He reminded me of how I would write dates beside the verses in my bible so I could remember His promises, He also have records, and He remembers them well.

It doesn’t matter if I miss “good” opportunities, God is telling me that the BEST is yet to come.

He is so patient in reminding me that He remembers. You know what I’m saying? You pray and remind God. Then you pray again and remind Him again. And you pray and cry. And He’ll come and comfort you and tell you to WAIT a little longer. :)

And you know that He does that out of His love. I need to wait because He needs to prepare me for the promise. What a loving Father. He is a covenant keeping God. He is faithful to fulfill ALL that he has promised. Praise God!

Moments after listening to the sermon, almost like after conversing with God, my sister texted and she’s ready to take off.

And in my spirit, I felt that God was also preparing me to take off and start believing in His promises. :)

“Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.”

Ephesians 3:20-21

Friday and Prayer

I love fridays. I have associated friday with prayer. Our church have a monthly prayer meeting every first friday of the month and our discipleship group (and sometimes cell group) meet also on (other) fridays for prayer.

In the past it’s friday=movie or friday = gimik. But now, it’s friday=prayer. :)

Weeee. I’m happy when I’m praying (I’m saying that with wide eyes and big smiles) and specially when I’m praying with a group.

A lot is accomplished in prayer. I’ve seen and witnessed people praying (even travailing) to know the will of God and to see His purposes happen. i remember praying with the core group because a laptop was stolen during our meeting at katip’s. We prayed and cried to the Lord. We don’t really know what to pray during that time. We just asked the Lord for His grace to let us understand His ways.

Would you believe? After one day, NBI called up my friend telling her that her laptop was retrieved from a raid! Amazing! Nothing is impossible with God! Grabe! *tumbling*

Oh, it was a lovely experience and I’d like to be in that experience every day, if possible.

I’d like to be sitting at the feet of Jesus and spending hours in prayer and intercession.

Tonight I’ll be meeting with my discipleship group and we’ll be attending at Ptr. Dick’s worship and prayer time. Ptr. Dick is part of the Zion’s worship team. I’m really excited! I’m excited to meet God later!!  :)

Any prayer requests?

What Can I Do

When I see the beauty
Of the sunset's glory
Amazing artistry
Across the evening sky
When I feel the mystery
Of a distant galaxy
It awes and humbles me
To be loved by a God so high

What can I do but thank you
What can I do but give
My life to you
Hallelujah, hallelujah
What can I do but praise you
Every day make everything I do
A hallelujah, a hallelujah
Hallelujah
(click for complete song lyrics)

I’ve been singing that song since Sunday. I loove it!

I mean, the sky and all that beautiful things that hang on it really speaks about the grand-ness of God to me.

I love it when I see the sun rays piercing through the dark clouds. It’s as if the glory of God descending through the heavens. Oh yes, I often imagine how the second coming would be like these past few days.

Hmm. Keeps my heart fresh everyday to do things for Jesus and not to do things so as not to miss heaven.

I’ve been quite busy these past days. When I say I’m busy that means I’m sort of disconnected with my friends. Or I’ve been missing a lot of coffee talks and updates and I haven’t been updating them as well to what’s been happening to my life.

i realized that when I spent almost three hours on the phone with bcel, telling me stories after stories about her new life in law school. Then ate daps also talked to me to tell me that i haven’t been attending our winnie dates for the past months. And I didn’t realized that my dear ate daps will be married in two months! Sheesh. Hehe. :)

Really felt happy after speaking to my sisters. I mean, I wasn’t expecting a fellowship over the phone yesterday. Praise God for opportunities (and sprinkles). :)

Well, I’m suppose to update this blog on what’s happening to me or better yet, what the Lord has been doing in my life lately. But sometime it’s hard to squeeze everything in words. Not all experiences can be described in words. If you know what I mean.

It has been a wonderful journey of character molding with the Lord. I’ve been attending discipleships and bible classes these past months. It’s really humbling to realize that I know nothing about the Lord. I mean, I thought I know a lot about him but everyday, His getting bigger and grander!

Also, the Lord has been so gracious to entrust a few wonderful flocks in the church and also outside the church. So I’ve been using my time to help them grow in the Lord and know this big and grand Jesus that I love.

And of course, some of my extra time are spent on my kneees praying, or waiting or singing or reading or dancing, Oh yes! Dancing! I’m teaching tambourine dance again in our church. :) Praise God. It’s a wonderful feeling to hold (again) the only instrument that I know how to play. :)

So there. Quite a long post. I think I’ve said a lot, I hope I was able to fill in the weeks that I was in semi-hiatus. :)

The Concept of Divine Control

After divine exchange comes divine control. :) God is so gracious to qualify me to a different level of test. Harder, greater pressure, intensified strain, seven times hotter. Praise God because by this, His strength is being made perfect in my weakness. And I praise God for the words of Oswald Chambers that just exactly fit to my circumstance right now. My heart is really rejoicing because I can see that HE IS REALLY IN CONTROL. Hallelujah!

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. . . how much more will your Father who is in heaven give good things to those who ask Him!

—Matthew 7:11

Jesus is laying down the rules of conduct in this passage for those people who have His Spirit. He urges us to keep our minds filled with the concept of God’s control over everything, which means that a disciple must maintain an attitude of perfect trust and an eagerness to ask and to seek.

Fill your mind with the thought that God is there. And once your mind is truly filled with that thought, when you experience difficulties it will be as easy as breathing for you to remember, “My heavenly Father knows all about this!” This will be no effort at all, but will be a natural thing for you when difficulties and uncertainties arise. Before you formed this concept of divine control so powerfully in your mind, you used to go from person to person seeking help, but now you go to God about it. Jesus is laying down the rules of conduct for those people who have His Spirit, and it works on the following principle: God is my Father, He loves me, and I will never think of anything that He will forget, so why should I worry?

Jesus said there are times when God cannot lift the darkness from you, but you should trust Him. At times God will appear like an unkind friend, but He is not; He will appear like an unnatural father, but He is not; He will appear like an unjust judge, but He is not. Keep the thought that the mind of God is behind all things strong and growing. Not even the smallest detail of life happens unless God’s will is behind it. Therefore, you can rest in perfect confidence in Him. Prayer is not only asking, but is an attitude of the mind which produces the atmosphere in which asking is perfectly natural. “Ask, and it will be given to you . . .” (Matthew 7:7 ).

Divine Exchange

I’m loving these words for days!

Divine exchange.

A few weeks ago, during our cell group’s prayer time, the Lord gave these verses:

Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light” Matthew 11:28-30

Little did I know, that I, the leader of the group would be the first to experience this sort of “rainy-day-exchange-gift” with the Lord.

It started when I prayed that god will examine my heart. It amazes me when the Lord reveals my heart. I mean, He really knows the deep things of my heart more than I know it. When I asked Him to examine my heart and reveal the things that didn’t please Him, I was shocked to realized when He showed me a certain issue, I thought I had already surrendered a long time ago…was still there, quietly residing and building a burden in me.

And realizing that, made me feel the real weight of the burden that I was carrying (for quite a long time). Well, you see, I’m used to carrying heavy back packs since college. Laptops, calculus books and other stuff. I like carrying heavy things, and I feel that it’s normal to have “back pains”. I’ve grown used to it.

But right now, God just revealed to me that it’s not normal. Not just in the natural, but also in the spiritual sense. It’s not normal to carry heavy burdens and be acquainted with “pains” that are self-inflicted.

Honestly, when I received this word, I was blown away. I felt my system trying to resist the exchange. I felt this “fear of the unknown” in my heart. I fear that when I surrender this “burden” I wouldn’t be complete or it will be a big loss to me. Or something to that effect.

Then, the Spirit of the Lord assured me that He will never offer exchanges that we will not benefit or gain more. He is a Father who wants to give the best to his children. He is THAT good and THAT loving that He will be patient to us…for those times that we cry over the “surrendered burdens” until we realize that He’s choice is far more better!

So these days, I am in that season. Joyfully surrendering the “burdens” that I have kept in my heart and wanting His divine exchange…JESUS over my burden.

The exchange is not getting better version of the the thing I surrendered but it’s more of wanting the Lord in my life. I remember a hymn with a line that says, “Lord, be thou my vision…”

Nothing else Lord…but You.

No other thing, no other person, no other dream…but YOU.

ONLY YOU.

And that will be the BEST deal I’ll ever have in my life. :)

Calculus and Christianity

This morning the Lord revealed to me the connection between calculus and Christianity.

It started last night, when we were having our Core group meeting in the church, when I used helium and methane to illustrate how my (seemed-to-be-impossible) vision took it’s physical form this week. And as usual, I got the same giggling reaction from the group. “Wow, hanep…chemistry!”

Then the usual follow up comments, “I never understood chem” “…and math” “I liked physics better than chem”

I always get those comments every time I use science to illustrate a biblical truth. :)

But one comment stuck in mind on my way home, “..until now I don’t know the relevance of calculus.” usually, I’d just brushed it off, but last night, I tried remembering the applications of calculus. I mean, I had 9 units of solid calculus in engineering, it must be important in my course.

Engineering is “Applied Science”. That means almost everything we see everyday is the application of Math, Chem and Physics. The toothpaste on your toothbrush, the toilet bowl in your wash room, the jeepney going to Philcoa, the cheese burger in Mc Donald’s commercial. These products underwent processes that applied these three science in order to give us joy and pleasure. :)

The “trinity” courses (Math, Chem, Physics) I took in college for two years, was just a preparation for my majors in chemical engineering. And CALCULUS was our basic math in designing equipments and understanding chemical processes. So the chemical equipments that are used to manufacture the products that we use everyday, is an application of CALCULUS.

Another example is the MRT. Calculus is used to compute the electromagnetic energy of the train.

My point is, calculus is important in our daily lives. We just don’t feel it in raw because it is delivered to us in products and services.

The same way with the WORD OF GOD and Christianity. The WORD OF GOD is calculus, and CHRISTIANITY is the applied science.

The Word seems lifeless and boring when it is not lived in a life worthy of the calling of the Lord.

In John 1:1, it is said ” In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.”

Jesus is the “Applied Word”. His life is the Word and it brought life to people. He lived in such a way that His life manifested what was written in the scripture…and He fulfilled every written letter in it.

The same way with our Christian walk, knowing the Word is not enough. It must be written in the tablets of our hearts and life. It is not the letters of the scriptures but the application of it in our lives that will bring life and joy to other people.

And like Jesus, our Christian life should fulfill the Word of God until the end. We should be finishers and not just starters. Winning the prize, attaining the glory of Jesus and reaching the finish line.

It is not enough to know the Word, it must be lived. :)

Stewardship of Time.

Everytime I (think) I’m wasting my time, I would always remember the verse that says, ” Lord, teach me to number my days.” I just feel that today, every minute counts and that the time is (really) very near. Nothing should be wasted.

And right now, I’m thinking if I’m wasting my time blogging. Hehe. I just finished my work and I’m a few minutes early for the break time. I already spent a few minutes hopping from one blog to another just to visit some of my friend’s blog.

I’ve been missing a lot of them lately. My last post was an attempt to write a story because I miss my two disciples. And not just them, but all of my daughters in the Lord. But I have to accept (and take joy) in the Lord’s new season for me. The least I can do for them is to remember them in prayers and continue carrying them in my heart. :)

A lot has changed in my life and lifestyle. Which is somehow the reason why I don’t blog as often as before. I value time as I value Christ.

I don’t just balance my time, but I give them all to the Lord.

I learned that my two hours worth of quiet time and prayers is not enough to know the Lord. I need to stay and dwell in His presence the whole day. That means, worshipping Him with all that my hand is doing, with everything that my mind is thinking and with all the words that I’m saying.

Giving all for the Lord.

Because in the end, I have to give account to my King of how I used my time on earth. And I hope that He will find a faithful steward of time in me. By God’s grace…and in the goodness of the Holy Spirit. :)

Jailed.

Once upon a time, in the far away land of area two, a few meters away from the soccer field, one block away from Lutong Bahay Canteen, inside an old (but joy-full) boarding house, were three missionary-wanna-bees, dreaming of their future ministries and adventures.

“Ate Bear, I know you’ll be a pastor someday. Last night, I saw in a vision that you’re in front of an altar laying hands on the youth.”

I smiled. Imagining the vision of Blessed Bear.

“…and I saw a man at the back of the sanctuary, praying for you as you do your ministry.” She giggled.

“Hmm. Okay, the first part of the vision was great, but are you sure the second part was not a product of your creative imagination?”

” Haha. Well, the future will tell us, if it’s a product of my imagination or part of God’s perfect will.”

“I agree.  :) Isn’t that exciting? Sharing the ministry with your life partner? God’s gifts always come in showcase…alot of but-wait-there’s-more-additionals. hehe”

” So Bless, have you accepted the fact that Mission and Evangelism are not two different things but are  connected to each other?”

“Yes Ate Bear. Never thought that I have to love the lost and sharing the gospel before God will launch me to Missions. So I really should start breaking my walls to reach out. You think I can share the gospel? I have a bad reputation in high school.”

“Of course, God will work out our character to prepare us for our call. so prepare for the coming days of scrubbing and hammering.”

“I’m sure, God will work out your testimony, in a way that His glory will be displayed. :)

“What about you Charming Bear?”

“I want to go Missions. I want to evangelize. But I first, I have to reach my Jerusalem.”

Charming Bear started sobbing. She remembered the last phone call of her mom. Her mom doesn’t agree with her new “religion”. She was not allowed to join a church. She was persecuted.

“Let’s start claiming your Jerusalem in prayer. “

The conversation wasn’t really that serious. There were a lot of giggles and laughters in between. Their eyes were those of eagles, for their dreams were soaring high above the skies and flying with the great winds of the north.

“I wish we’ll go to missions together. In a communist country. We’ll smuggle bibles. We’ll start underground churches.”

“Then we’ll get caught.”

“Then jailed.”

“Then tortured.”

“Then would look at each other, and laugh (secretly) in between the beatings.”

(”And We’ll give each other that “i-told-you-so-look” then we’ll laugh again.”)

The three friends giggled. Imagining how they would try to keep their laughter when they see each other on the death chambers. As if, they were receiving their great reward.

“You think we can die for Jesus?”

Silence.

The three friends were silent for a few moments. As if something hit their hearts.

“Yes. Our lives, for the gospel, for His glory.”

Then the three knelt and prayed.

(To be continued…)

Some (random) afternoon thoughts

1. I like buying korean noodles. I just like the thrill of cooking them by following the drawing on the wrapper. last time I did this was disaster. I think I put alot of water, so the soup looked like an aquarium in my bowl.

2. It was my first time to buy a transformer. Not the robot, but the real (AVR) transformer. First time to shop at handyman. Felt dumb asking about transformers, volts and watts. I miss my brothers. I never had problems with broken appliances when they’re still here.

3. Sunset at LRT Cubao Station is the best (grand) sunset I’ve ever saw in months. Thanks Lord. :)

4. Ice cream overload in three consecutive days. My officemate told me about Sebastian’s ice cream at The Block. Hmm. Hmm. Ice cream after Narnia (just writing my bubble thought).

5. YIELD. My favorite word since Thursday last week.

6. It is one thing to love a brother(or a sister), and another thing to love him/her, in God’s way.

7. My heart has learned (and still learning) to praise, to sing and thank the Lord.

8. Last week, I was thinking of drinking Quickly’s Taro Ice. I thought that after so many years, and after forgetting everything in the past, I guess my favorite purple drink won’t have that bitter taste anymore. For He has made everything new, and sweeter from beginning to end.

9. I’d like to ask (all) people to call me Janice. My real name. Felt guilty of using a nickname (with no relevant meaning) over my real name, which means, God is gracious. Might be a bit weird at first, but please, call me Janice. :)

10. Meeting the Lord in the secret place is my (open ) secret. And I wish everybody will have the same secret.

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